Anyway, I woke up that morning with a sore throat and a little
tickle in my nose and thought to myself, 'self, I think you have the flu?! This is the universe telling you to
slow down and take some time out!' So, I did - I cancelled all my appointments
for the day and stayed in bed. After a few episodes of I cannot now remember
what, I fell asleep. For 4 hours!! I woke up wondering if this was just the flu
or something more serious.
I am a firm believer that any illness, sickness, injury or disease
is emotionally based, it is your body telling you something that you are not
hearing any other way. It has been proven to me time and time again! I get
ulcers in my mouth when I have not said something I need to and it is eating
away at me, I break my index finger when I am letting fear and ego rule me, my
mother hurts her back when she is not getting support from someone and needs
it, and I get the flu when I am doing too much or have massive inner conflict
about something! (Read Inna Segal's 'The Secret Language of Your Body' for more
details!! it will change your life!!) So, I was also wondering what inner
conflict I was having at this time, but knew mostly that it was the universe
telling me to slow down!! For the millionth time in my life, mind you… I just
can’t help it, there is so much to do, learn and see and I want to do it all,
NOW!! Anyway, I decided to take a day off and see how I felt the next day.
Well, my condition only got worse. And the worst part? I had to go in to work because in recent years I have been so flippant with my money I now have very little! Even though I have had a well paying job for almost three years, I had managed to, at the end of the contract, have saved around $300!! Very bad finance!! Anyway, so I have recently learnt the need to be more frugal and have just started to become that way when I got sick – not having enough in my account as yet to be able to afford to take time off (as I am now back to casual and do not get sick leave etc!) I had to go in to work!
Luckily though, by Friday I was feeling a bit better and was able
to go in to my Saturday Tarot Reading job, which I love because I get to help
people in a more personal way than I do as a teacher. Well, apparently I was not in fact well again
and the universe appeared to have more lessons in store for me. By Monday I could barely speak! Some things happened over the
weekend, which I will not get into here, but suffice it to say I fought the inevitable, tried to control things and prevent having to have ‘the conversation’ with
a male friend of mine and it manifested in a small dose of laryngitis!! Well,
according to Inna Segal in her aforementioned book, laryngitis is about holding
back (among other things, which are not that relevant, but everything on the
list doesn’t have to fit!). I was trying to prevent something from happening,
that may not need to happen, through my actions, when if I had just spoken my
truth it would be over with by now! Well, it has been a week and I have finally
just this morning been able to belt out a few notes of one of my favourite
songs, so it seems I am on the mend and the lesson has been learnt! For now…
Here’s hoping I don’t forget it and have to go through it all again!!!
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